As I tapped along with the article, it brought up and clarified something that I hadn’t fully realized about myself. I want to share it with you because it might give you another insight into fours.

I chose to suffer at a very young age for two reasons-to punish my mother for the emotional abuse I suffered (which I already knew), but also to get someone, anyone, to notice how miserable I was and rescue me. I figured that if I was in enough pain that someone would have to show me some kindness, and maybe even love. Unfortunately, it didn’t work and there was a point in my life in which I realized that. Along with that realization came the conclusion that I was so worthless that no one cared that I was in so much emotional pain. After tapping on these newly discovered aspects of this issue, I can say that I am nearly free of them. Before tapping, just typing out my story would have caused me to dissolve into inconsolable tears, but there is just the barest twinge of sadness left now.

At the risk of making this comment too long, let me add just one more thing. I learned a great way of unseating deep issues from Lindsey Kenney’s website and I use it on very old issues like this. She says that sometimes the body just needs to be told to release something, and created a protocol for asking it to do so. For this issue, I tapped on the following:

Even though I have this decision to suffer in order to get attention embedded in the cells of my body, I ask my body to completely release it now. I then did a round on “All remaining decision to suffer” and one on “I ask my body to completely release this decision now”

Thanks so much for your insightful article.

Arinda